truth of the matter ‘overwhelming’ is the thought that there are people checking my site (as if there is something significant in my spot), one reason why I get inspired in writing vital (i think) point views in my ‘solace. lately i haven’t been writing a lot because i was busy checking papers for my writing classes plus i have been slaving around with my class’ thesis (and i know for a fact, even if i am deeply hurt, my subject have been occupying a lot of my student’s time, imagine saturdays and sundays that they have to see each other because they need to ‘rehash’ and ‘add’ more facts to their proposal, they have been seeing each other mondays thru fridays, then they have to see each other again during weekends, nakakaumay!)
i was once alarmed by the fact that ‘chika’ have been circulating about me that i terribly give ‘low’ grades. at first i was disturbed, because it’s not true, i mean as far as i know i give grades in accordance to what they deserve, i am not saying that most of my students are ‘slow’ or ‘stupid’, but the reason why they are in school is because they have to ‘learn’ and to have ‘sky rocketing grades’ are just secondary.
i know that some might react and tell me that getting high grades is part of their ‘university life’ but at least try to grasp this- how many students come to school to actually learn? how many students come to class to ‘graduate’? to get their diploma?
you see students in this generation are far more concern on the ‘numbers’ they get (grades) than the actual learning experience. in fact, i would always end my lessons early not because i want to but because there are no students, and i mean no students who asks me questions that would produce a worthwhile ‘intellectual intercourse'.
i for one believe that ‘education is not a compromise’. you go to school to learn and grades are just a prima facie on how you actually performed during the semester. kids these days get high grades because they resort to ‘not so’ good techniques in claiming what they think they deserve. they loose their integrity and their humanity because they act as if it is the only option available. they thought professors never notices the way they tilt their head to look at their classmates answer, on how they centralize their eyes on the person whom they think has the right answers. i mean they party the night before and then they also want to get high grades the next morning? they want the best of both worlds; the word priority doesn’t mean anything to them? kung makakahamig- hahamig.
so my solution to that is to always give essay or analysis for examination. one teacher asked me ‘diba mahirap yang chekan?’ i answered ‘yup, but this is the only way i could motivate my students to speak their minds’ then my colleague answered ‘pano kung daanin ka sa chika?’ so i answered back ‘chika o hindi i’d still get an ounce of what they think’.
education can never be a concession, a kid should get the grade that he/she deserves, i am not saying that teachers should not give them ‘considerations’ in the numerical sense but I think it would be better for the students to walk tall knowing that the grades they have is something that they actually earned.
a lot of students seek their teacher’s favor because they want an easy way map for the semester, what they don’t get is that if the teachers liked them personally, the expectations from the professor becomes higher, leaving a little for consideration.
so the key, make learning the priority.
you are NOT in school to graduate; you are in school to learn the utmost knowledge your brain can handle.
one thing that i cannot fully grasp about some people around me is the fact that they can easily assign 'brackets' to things, places,even individuals. they tend to 'label'
everything. they assign status to almost anything. read on for examples-
1. if you do some 'dirty' sign using your middle finger, you're cool.
2. if you use 'scandalous' shirts (with labels such as 'pornstar in training' or b*tch in the making) you're a rockstar!
3. if you wear converse sneakers and look angry or at least look somewhere along the line of confuse/sober you are soooo in.
4. if you can provide an 'orphan comment' from marx, chairman mao, engels or other 'mortal'intellectuals you are above average.
but, if you start to talk about God, people would feel nauseas, as if what you are talking about is contagious and they would have the following reactions-
*note these are all true stories most of the time i get reactions like these when i
evangelize some of my students or invite them to our weekday cell meet-
1.ma’m una na po kami… (saan kayo pupunta?)
2.sabunin mo man ako di ako mag-papalit ng religion (bakit?!!!)
3.di pa ako ready…(saan?)
4.mam may gagawin pa po ako eh…(ano? tatatanga o mag se-self pity?)
5.mam sayang di ako pwede…(sayang talaga!)
6.mam di po ako pinayagan…(na ano?)
7.mam sorry di po ako makaka-attend…(di ka dapat sa akin nag so-sorry)
8.mam pagod po ako…(buti na lang di napapagod si God!)
9.mam hindi ko po ‘trip’ yan eh (what will you do if God would say to your face (na alam naman nating di mangyayari because he is a loving God) na di ka niya ‘trip’ pare)
my personal favorite*
mam atheist ako…di ako naniniwala na my God…(talaga? if people like you don’t believe in him bakit kailangan nyong i-proclaim?, if truly you don’t believe in Him you should’nt even mention his name for relatively he should not exist in your world!)
you see, even if we deny his presence a thousand times we need God. But what I don’t understand is why most people ‘contact’ him when it is convenient for them, making him an option in their lives. When things go wrong in our lives we ‘always’ call him, not to ask for help but to blame him for everything. we tell him (if not declare) that he is unfair, that we don’t deserve this, that we are to good for incidents like these. these things can be avoided.
why choose to live a journey that you will traverse ‘alone’ when you can have an opportunity to ‘travel with Him’.
what happened to me when i became a christian is unforgettable-
1.i lost my friends.
2.according to some i lost my ‘thrill’
3.i became a ‘square’ (boring)
4.i became annoying for i always talk about God (because they believe that there better things to do other than knowing God)
5.i have problems with my personality for i lack compassion on what they do (such as pre-marital sex, drinking, smoking, drugs, etc) which is true.
6.i attended church
7.i read the bible (which they really find ‘corny’ if i may quote a friend of mine ‘wala na bang ibang pwedeng basahin?”)
8.i pray on public areas (specially when saying grace before eating a meal)
9.i make them feel like they are bad (that was unintentional)
10.i give poor advice (because my advice would always concern God’s will)
the funny thing is that even if i felt bad about those things, i have no regrets of accepting Christ as my personal Lord and Savior because i know i am not missing out on worldly things.
that even if mankind would deny me their company and their union i will not falter for Christ will never be an option for me.
Thursday, July 01, 2004
courting rituals (part 2)other stuffs you can do while looking for potential bf's
GUY: jen kung sasabihin ko bang mahal kita maniniwala ka?
JEN: hindi.
GUY: jen pwede ba kitang ligawan?
JEN: ngayon na?
GUY: jen coffee tayo...
JEN: tanga! tao tayo...
GUY: jen may pag-asa ba ako?
JEN: kanino?
GUY: jen dadalaw sana ako sa inyo mamayang gabi...
JEN: bakit?!!! sino ang may sakit?
GUY: jen pabayaan mong patunayan kong mahal kita...
JEN: hindi ok lang wag na...ayos lang
GUY: jen naalala kita pag naririnig ko ang 'it might be you'
JEN: blag! (hinimatay ako nun!)
GUY: jen first love kita...
JEN: talaga?
GUY: oo..
JEN: nakakainis 'no?
GUY: jen ano ang ideal date mo?
JEN: hindi ikaw.
*again my personal favorite
GUY: jen nood tayong sine...
JEN: sige...kasama ka ba?
